It's been a long time, I know.
Truthfully? I haven't felt like I could write before now. I've been so low on grace the past two months. I've been hard on myself, hard on my husband, and hard on my kids. There's just been so much going on with our family and with me emotionally and my fuse has been extra short.
I'd like to say I've turned a corner, but I can't really say that if I'm being honest (and I promised myself to always be honest here). But I will say that I'm trying harder.
No, I'm not trying harder to stop losing my temper. I'm not trying harder to be happy. I'm not even trying harder to be a better wife/mom/person.
I'm not trying harder to do anything, other than go to the One who can make me better and happy and give me self-control. Because I can't do it on my own.
Life updates soon, I promise! :)
In the mean time, check out Charlyn's Heart, a blog by a sweet woman I have known for many, many years. I had the privilege of designing her blog a few weeks ago. I know her heart will bless you like it has me!
Sister,
ReplyDeleteI love the raw emotion expressed in this post. I love that you're not trying to do anything but take your weaknesses to Him so that His grace can become sufficient in your life. You are such an inspiration! And, give yourself some credit... you're a great mom. I don't know any other twenty-five year olds that are raising three children, homeschooling, starting their own business, supporting their husband, and living in a city with no family. No wonder your fuse it short! Taylor, you're super woman and I am so so so proud to be your little sister and look up to you. I love you so much!
Ps. Just facetime when you need some adult convos! You know I'm always here!!